I am very lucky to have the friends and boyfriend that I do. I sometimes get very paranoid and scared that everyone will leave me if I’m negative or show weakness, I don’t know where those ridiculous abandonment issues come from, anyone that’s ever left me I’ve been better off in their absence. What is humbling and reassuring though is having the steady and unfaltering support of people who care about me who confirm that it’s okay to feel insecure and scared that life’s not going how I want it to. That everyone feels like that sometimes and at the end of the day my life is still pretty damn good because they’re in it. Soon hopefully I will have a schedule that is not the opposite of everyone I love and I’ll be able to emerge as a social being again.